No stigma here


Health, PPD

There’s a new button over there –> It’s pretty colourful, you can’t miss it. It stems from this post by Toy With Me. Ending the stigma on mental illnesses is a big thing for me. I have now been dealing with clinical depression for half my life. Sixteen years of ups and downs, sometimes sleeping […]

November 28, 2013

Tears and sadness


Personal, PPD

The very worst times of my life are those times when I have sat with my baby girl in my lap, weeping and apologizing to her. It has happened three or four times, when I’m at the end of my rope and everything seems to be going wrong. I cry and cry and can’t stop […]

September 25, 2011

Somewhere in between


Parenting, PPD

I love my daughter more than I can ever describe. She’s smart and beautiful and she’s curious and she gives the world’s best hugs. I love her and I love being with her. And there are nights like tonight when I just want her to go to sleep. I want to put her to bed […]

September 23, 2011

Blah


Personal, PPD

I’m sad. I’m so sad right now that even a great big hug from two chubby little arms that feels better than any hug you’ve ever had can’t even break this mood. I think this sadness stems from being tired. Even during nights that the kid doesn’t wake up I still do. I feel teary. […]

July 8, 2011

Flash


Parenting, Personal, PPD

Today, while driving out of the parking lot at Ikea, I had a flash of something. It wasn’t memory, it wasn’t real, it was something that my brain decided to show me – a possibility, a fear, something. I was driving out of the Ikea parking lot with my daughter in the back seat, driving […]

March 18, 2011

Hard just gets harder


Parenting, Personal, PPD

I’ve been under stress lately – I’ve been sick for over a week now, Joe went away and I haven’t been sleeping well (and neither has the Baby Girl), there are a lot of things I’ve been wanting to do but just haven’t been able to, what with being sick and alone with the baby, […]

November 29, 2010

Click


Personal, PPD

There is a switch inside of me that gets flipped without me even realizing what happened. It’s as though I hit just that point of tired or hungry or frustrated or sad or all of the above and I transform like the Hulk. I hear myself getting angry. I hear myself saying things that aren’t […]

September 28, 2010

Tested


Parenting, Personal, PPD

The past few days have been some of the hardest I’ve ever been through. It really honestly felt like we were being punished for something we didn’t know we had done, and the one facing the brunt of it was our innocent little Schnauzer. (If you want to know what happened, it’s all here) This […]

September 8, 2010

Joined at the hip


PPD

I’m having one of my down moments. A moment that I know I’m not being entirely rational, but that doesn’t stop me from being sad. I’ve said before that I’m not good at keeping in touch with people. I’m not good at keeping friends. I’ve never had a large group of friends and it can […]

September 4, 2010

Not a valid opinion


Issues, Parenting, Personal, PPD

Two days ago I read, along with a lot of women I talk to, the AOL article about Shaquan Duley. I read Her Bad Mother’s reaction and I read the open letter to a so-called expert on Pretty Babies. I’ve let it sit for two days that this women, a criminal profiler that should never […]

August 20, 2010