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Take My Wisdom Teeth, Please

October 11th, 2017 | Posted by Amy Boughner in Health | Parenting - (Comments Off on Take My Wisdom Teeth, Please)

When I was a kid I didn’t hate going to the dentist. It was usually just fine. Until I had to get a retainer. Actually, even then I didn’t really mind because I always wanted to be like my older sister. But I grew to hate my retainer, and when they told me they wanted to put …
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Fear, Itself

August 2nd, 2017 | Posted by Amy Boughner in Health | Personal - (Comments Off on Fear, Itself)

I took the puppy to get his haircut today, and before I dropped him off I took him on a bit of a walk around a park, down a path, because we were a bit early. I’m trying to take him for more walks. He’s getting old and he deserves it, and I deserve that …
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I’m holding on

July 20th, 2017 | Posted by Amy Boughner in Health | Issues | Personal - (Comments Off on I’m holding on)

When  I was 17 or 18 my father turned to me after a dinner at his house and asked me, point blank: “When was the last time you thought about killing yourself?” I was shocked into just answering, honestly. It had been about a year before. By the time he asked I was over that …
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A piece of wax

June 28th, 2017 | Posted by Amy Boughner in Health | Personal - (Comments Off on A piece of wax)

There are a lot of things that I haven’t been doing enough of lately. Blogging is one. Writing in general, really. But I have been reading a lot. I haven’t been exercising, but I did spend a lot of the last week cleaning and doing home improvement projects. To celebrate Canada Day the whole family …
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Can’t wait for tomorrow

June 11th, 2017 | Posted by Amy Boughner in Health | Personal - (Comments Off on Can’t wait for tomorrow)

I’m am currently in a period of depression. I know this because everything seems hard and I get tired easily. I want to want to clean the house but I don’t know where to start, so I haven’t. I want to eat better, but preparing food is too much. I want to focus on things …
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The marathon

June 2nd, 2017 | Posted by Amy Boughner in Health | Personal - (Comments Off on The marathon)

I am struggling. I’m am struggling to focus. I’m struggling to eat well. I’m struggling to deal with the knowledge that my struggles with confidence are probably related to my depression. I am struggling to give myself permission to do what I need. The house is a bit of a mess, despite the fact that …
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Persisting

May 31st, 2017 | Posted by Amy Boughner in Health | Parenting - (Comments Off on Persisting)

I had a panic attack last Saturday. I couldn’t stop the tears. I was filled with fear. I had just returned from a work trip to Toronto, I was tired, things had been moving rapidly and I was full of doubt. I signed up for a 5k race that I was not prepared for, but …
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What’s Next?

April 28th, 2017 | Posted by Amy Boughner in Health | Personal - (Comments Off on What’s Next?)

I can only describe my current mental state as the calm before the storm. I feel very mellow. It’s almost like I can’t really believe that next week I’m going to be starting a job that’s just about perfect. There is an underlying fear. There is an underlying fear to almost everything right now. A …
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Itchy, scratchy, wheezy

March 13th, 2017 | Posted by Amy Boughner in Health | Personal - (Comments Off on Itchy, scratchy, wheezy)

Many moons ago when I was a kid I had a horrible rash on my arms. The doctor gave me a special lotion but it was so itchy all the time, and I was experiencing constant colds. My GP sent me to an allergist. I have never forgotten sitting in the exam room with hives …
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Ask.

January 29th, 2017 | Posted by Amy Boughner in Health - (Comments Off on Ask.)

When I was 17 my sister and I went over to my father’s house for dinner – as we often did in those days – and as we sat in the living room my father turned to me and said “when was the last time you thought about suicide?” And I was so stunned by …
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