Not quite


Health, Personal

There are two keys to my depression – the things that go sideways first. One is eating, the other is sleep. This week both tanked severely. The kid was struggling with anxiety and sleep. Joe was away, which means that she was struggling more and that it was all on me to try my fix […]

April 14, 2018

Turmoil


Health, Personal

For the past month or so my life has been in upheaval. A few weeks ago I was in the emergency room, terrified, in pain and uncomfortable. I felt as though I might be having a heart attack. I went through a bunch of tests – and I am so thankful for the doctor who […]

April 2, 2018

Brain dump


Health, Personal

I logged in to my blog and I don’t know why. I can’t remember thinking of something I needed to write, I just know that I re-opened my browser just now and came to this page and logged it. It could be that there is so much going on right now that instinct took over […]

March 11, 2018

Side Effects


Health, Personal

While waiting in the emergency room the other day I posted on Instagram. I got messages from people, kind messages asking me if everything was okay, letting me know in the days since that they hope I’m feeling better. My family has checked in – How are you feeling? And honestly I have no idea. […]

March 5, 2018

March 1, 2018


Health, Personal

I had been feeling a little bit nauseous all day, so I decided to have a small snack to see if not eating was part of the problem. Within half an hour I was feeling super nauseous and lightheaded, with pain radiating across my shoulder blades. I felt horrible and I felt scared. I was […]

March 2, 2018

One to grow on


Health, Personal

The beginning of January was great. I set out a plan and I enacted it. Not all of it, but I was getting started and it felt pretty good. Some days it felt awesome. The day my friend Laurie died I went into aquafit and punched the water with everything I had. I needed to […]

February 4, 2018

Marching on


Health, Issues, Parenting, Personal

I took the kid up to the Hill on Saturday to experience the Women’s March. I had wanted to go last year but I was sick or something and didn’t make it. I knew it wouldn’t be exactly the same this year, not being the first of the movement, but I also knew I wanted […]

January 24, 2018

Fuel


Health, Personal, Women's Issues

The other day Joe said something to the kid and it pinged something in me. She asked if she could have a doughnut when we stopped for hot chocolate after the Christmas parade (this was not just a Santa Claus parade, there was a girl dressed as Mary riding a donkey in the first group) […]

December 4, 2017

The year ahead


Health, Personal

I went to New York by myself, and I spent a lot of time walking around, surrounded by people but alone, listening and experiencing. I cried when it was over. Now I’m in bed, sick with a bad cold, and thinking. I’m thinking ahead. I’m thinking about my baby girl growing, and what comes next […]

November 22, 2017

Breathless


Health, Personal

As a kid I was diagnosed with asthma. They do this thing where you have to breathe into a computer and it tells them how pathetic your lungs are. And then it got better. I assume because I exercised more and lost weight in high school, the asthma went away. For years I lived inhaler […]

November 10, 2017