Sometimes I feel stuck between identities. It’s ingrained in me, because I grew up with one sister but I’m also the youngest of five. I have also become a lot of things I didn’t expect, and tried to be things I could never have been. The title of mother still surprises me sometimes. I have …
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I’ve been putting a playlist together since last night. Late 60s into the 70s. A specific sound of song that fits my mood just now. Gloomy. Halloween appropriate, I guess. It’s the mix of another thing my kid doesn’t get to do this year, anger at all the people still not taking it seriously, and …
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My body is well and truly fucked up. I have carpal tunnel in my right wrist after waiting too long to ask for a proper desk set-up at work a few years ago. I have tendonitis in my right elbow that occasionally gets so painful it feels as though I’m actually going to dislocate the …
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I feel like a good, old school hibernation. It seems unlikely at this point that I’ll be working out of my office again any time soon, and that means hunkering down and making the best of it. One of my favourite things about working from home in the past was not having to worry about …
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My need to lose weight has been something that’s been in and out of priorities for a few years now. It seemed that whenever I had time to focus that would inevitably disappear when some new and awful challenge came up. The last few years have been very, very hard for our family. So much …
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We have been under lockdown since March. We are very lucky in that we are a two income household, we can both work from home, and have a child who is old enough and independent enough to do alright. We couldn’t not have been better placed for this pandemic. But still. It feels like grieving. …
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There is very little I can say right now, and very little reason I should be allowed to opine – except to say that I recognize the luck I had being born who I am where I am, and the privilege that all of this provides. I am a white, middle class, suburban mom with …
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I am not a good sleeper. I never have been. When I was a kid I would read by night-light after my mom tucked me in. As a teenager I used to stay up so late I would get my days and nights flipped around in the summer. I get productive in the evenings and …
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One of the things that has been good about this whole lockdown has been the fact that I have turned doodling into sketching and painting. I created a pandemic notebook that I use every day to draw in. It have always been better able to pay attention while doodling, and now my doodling is growing, …
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It’s been a year since we drove to Toronto to meet a dog that we thought might be right for us – and then drove home with the dog. He went on a walk with the kid, jump into the car and then slept all the way home. We were amazed at how comfortable he …
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