This is what I’ve been waiting for:

This year my birthday is a little bit different, mostly because I’ll be thinking about my mom a lot more than I ever have on my birthday and partly because I can’t help but think back over the last five years. Five years ago I was approaching the end of my first year of university, [...]

Today is September 11, 8 years later. I remember everything about that day and I’m writing it down so I will remember, I’m writing it down because someday my little girl will ask me where I was and what I did that day. In September 2001 I was just starting my first semester of college. [...]

I have been fascinated to learn how differently one is treated when one is clearly pregnant. I have coworkers who are always asking me how I’m doing, how’s my health, is everything okay, how am I feeling. Which is nice, though a bit odd at times. Today I was even told that I look gorgeous [...]

I am developing a new perspective on life thanks to my viewing of a (typical) episode of Extreme Makeover: Home Edition last night. As usual, the show made me cry, but it also put all the bad things I’m going through in a different perspective. While I am currently out of work, living on a [...]

…but only to this website. I have lost 25 lbs. with a view to getting down to 175 by the wedding – that’s five more to go.  I’ve been getting on the bike and doing my 30 minutes at least – except last week I got off track and only got up to 30 one [...]

Not only have I been crossing things off my wedding to do list like mad, but the list that I set up to remind myself of all the good habits is also getting big checkmarks every day, building up over the week. This way I get to congratulate myself with a checkmark every time I [...]

After a weekend of reflection, tears and long discussions, I have started anew again. Last night I rode the bike for almost a hour at the new tension that I’ve worked my way up to, this morning I started taking my vitamins again and flossed my teeth – all things I’m trying to do to [...]

My last exam was yesterday and I have been officially unemployed for a couple of weeks, officially broke for a few days and I am retreating to my world of depressions and illogical thinking again. I feel tired, fat, I’ve lost my appetite and I don’t deserve to have fun. It is a familiar place [...]