Acceptance stage


This morning my car smelled like apples. This is because last night when I got home I left an apple core in the cup holder. And thus begins my realization of just how much like my father I am. I have known, I think, my whole life. Uncomfortably so. But I’m starting to think the […]

September 28, 2016


Health, Parenting, Personal

You know what I have been appreciating more than ever before lately? Silence. Usually I am the type of person who likes to have some background noise. I throw on some music or re-watch a TV show while I’m getting things done. I play the radio or podcasts in my car. I walk with earphones. […]

September 27, 2016

This is the beginning


It’s been almost a month since I started back at work and I’m still tired, my face is breaking out, the commute is still rough, and every day, at least once a day, I feel like a complete idiot. But last week I did the Army Run 5k. I wasn’t sure how it would go, […]

September 23, 2016

In the name of love

Parenting, Personal, Women's Issues

The other day at the park, after her first day back at school, the kid was fly around the monkey bars and talking a mile a minute. She was showing me her tricks and demonstrating her strength and also telling me how good she is and how she taught one of her friends a better […]

September 9, 2016

Grade 1

Parenting, Personal

The kid has started Grade 1… This seems big and important to me not only because it’s an actual numbered grade, but also because I remember Grade 1. I remember a lot about Grade 1, while I only remember snippets of kindergarten – like the little red-headed boy who threw up in front of the […]

September 8, 2016

Age ain’t nothing


Sometime last year I noticed a shining white hair among my usual brown. I was excited because I have felt like a kid for so long, it felt like real proof that I was growing up. Over the summer my head became, rather suddenly, much more populated by this white hairs. Mostly on the left […]

September 7, 2016

Dear 16 year old me


Dear 16-year-old me, Hi there. You’re going through a hard time right now, I know. Even though you’re really good at hiding it. You’re considering some drastic things like dropping out of school and even suicide. You have no idea that 20 years from now you’ll be in a much better place. You have no […]

September 6, 2016

The Overwhelm begins


I am one week in to my new job, and I haven’t cried once, but on Friday it was a very close call. So much has been thrown at me in such a very short time. Of course, that includes the fact that I got the job, bought a car and started within about a week. […]

September 5, 2016