I seem to be coming out of the other side of something. For weeks I was having trouble sleeping, I was easily overwhelmed. I was really freaking irritable. It all seemed to be a fairly normal way to grieve, but that, of course, didn’t make it any easier.
Yesterday I went to see my doctor and she asked me how I was doing. I told her that I’ve been really unpleasant to be around for the past month or so, but that last week and this week I feel almost lighter.
Last week there were two days when I went to bed when I was tired, and that meant that I got up happily when the kid woke up and then went to the gym while she was at day camp. Suddenly I felt pretty good about getting stuff done.
We’re moving forward. Things are moving forward. We’ve got a lot of summer left and I can make good use of it still.
Something very strange I have noticed in the past week or so, amidst going to be early, getting up early, eating breakfast, making salads with dinner – all things that are very out of character and feel rather grown up – I have not been watching TV. I found myself sitting, getting work done, I didn’t have anything playing in the background.
This is really unusual for me.
All of this is really unusual for me.
And it feels pretty good.
I’m going to have to get used to that.
We’re doing alright here.
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