Exercise I can do. I’ve exercised before, and I enjoy a good sweat when I’m working hard. I can push myself there.
The real problem here is diet.
I have been entering what I eat into My Fitness Pal, I have cut out the bad and cut down on snacking. What has become blatantly clear is that I have no idea how to feed myself.
Seriously. I’m really bad at it.
I have an idea of what healthy eating is, I have an idea of what an appropriate portion is, but the balance between the amount of calories I’m taking in and when I’m taking them in is all off. Three meals a day doesn’t cut it. I’m always over the allotted sugar and carbs and fat.
I have a certain amount of time to think about meals and food and a certain amount of time to get things prepped and eat. Breakfast is particularly difficult. You’re supposed to have a good breakfast, you’re supposed to get protein in there, but the fact is that I have never been a breakfast person. I don’t like eating first thing in the morning and I certainly don’t like eating heavy things that early. Around 10 am I’m ready for a meal.
It just really sucks. It makes me feel like I suck.
When I know I’m going to be hungry still during the day and I know that I have eaten too many calories it pushes me to exercise, but I’m very nervous about getting into the habit of exercises just so I can eat and eating just to exercise. I’m also worried that if it continues being hard that I’ll get tired give up, which would be a wrong move.
Do I really need to plan out every meal and snack, measure them out and never divert?