My former director has written a book. I pre-ordered it as soon as I could and have been reading it. I haven’t even gotten to the time period where I was there working for him and it’s already stirring memories. There was a book launch downtown tonight and I went. All day I felt like just not going. It was scary for me, this idea of stepping back into that world.
Finally, Joe told me to just drive downtown, walk around and then decide to go or not go. When I had parked I found myself just walking up to the restaurant. I was determined to get my book signed at least.
My job was very strange. Most people would know my name because I sent around a lot of information, but I also rarely left the office because my job was staying on top of the news, so they don’t know my face. Still, I dearly loved the team I worked with and I wanted to see them.
I went in, I saw a few people, I got my book signed and I booted it out of there, happy to have said hello to a few.
One of my former colleagues told me I look happy. Am I happy? Yes, I nodded. Definitely.
Driving down the highway in the dark I was thinking about the overwhelm of it, this evening with people from a past life. It really seems like so long ago. It’s been a year and a half and I shed the skin of the political staffer and became a stay at home mom.
I loved these people, I loved my job, I loved the work and I was good. I was really good. But the past year and a half I have figured something out.
Actually I just figured it out last night.
I spent two days cleaning the house, we re-decorated the kid’s room, she and I cooked and baked, we played games, we spent time with friends and as a family. Just last night it dawned on my, as I thought about my day spent getting our kitchen clean and the laundry done, that I love being a stay at home mom. I’m good at it, and I enjoy it. I never saw this coming.
The reason I was so emotional in the car on the way home tonight is that this one year and a half has been so transformative that I almost can’t believe that my life in the four years before really happened. I was there through history. I was there. It’s unbelievable.
My time with the NDP changed my life, I am so lucky to have been there. And so very, very lucky to now be here.