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September 13th, 2012 | Posted by Amy Boughner in Personal

So, I’m broken.

I’m tired all the time but can’t sleep at night. I’m eating wrong and it’s hard to care. My PCOS is flaring up and I can feel its attack.

I need to fix me. I’ve said it before.

But having a toddler who is throwing her weight around makes everything just that much harder. I try to play with her and I get tired. I try to deal with her tantrums and I get emotional. It’s too hard.

So we need to design a plan wherein the kid gets what she needs (but not everything she wants) and I get what I need.

I need good fuel. I need to plan breakfasts and lunches and snacks and give up on this idea that I can have a Coke once in a while.

I need re-charging. There is a yoga studio not far from our place. They offer a $35 unlimited pass for one month for people new to the studio. I can get out of the house and do as much yoga as possible and feel that much better, body and soul, at the end of the month.

I need fresh air and fun. I need to work with my passions.

I want to go for walks, and play with my dog. I want to put aside my fears and maybe convince myself to go to the local writers’ group. I want to reconnect with friends. We had a ladies’ night last month and it was energizing and relaxing at the same time. I need to actually finish some of the knitting I’ve started lately.

I need to fix what is broken. I’ve said it before. I keep failing. How many times?

She tells me life is beautiful

I’d like to live it with her.

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