I love the work I do. I feel important. I love my days at work.
But I miss fresh air. I miss exercise an sunshine. The days are getting brighter and warmer. I want to jump in puddles with my daughter.
I bought her rain boots this week. I’ve been buying her presents – a book, a small Easter gift, new boots. This comes out partly of my guilt for not being there. It comes partly out of my thinking of her and wanting her to know that I do.
I was unprepared for just how much I would miss her. I was unprepared for how I would react to missing her.
Yesterday I spent about an hour with her in the morning and she’s been learning while I’ve been away. She dropped her water cup and she said ‘uh oh.’ She wakes up and calls out for Daddy.
The solace I take is that she and her Daddy are growing together. It’s nice to see, it’s what I’ve wanted. It gives me something else to think about.