Dear Baby


Parenting, Personal

Dear Baby Girl, Tonight, as I was rocking you and calming you and trying to get you to sleep, I whispered in your ear. You had been crying. You’re having a rough time right now it seems – you’re teething, you’re growing, you’ve got a cold and it seems as though you’ve reached the separation […]

September 28, 2010

Click


Personal, PPD

There is a switch inside of me that gets flipped without me even realizing what happened. It’s as though I hit just that point of tired or hungry or frustrated or sad or all of the above and I transform like the Hulk. I hear myself getting angry. I hear myself saying things that aren’t […]

September 28, 2010

I hated Marineland


Parenting

For most of my life, the part of my life when I’ve considered such things, I would never have described myself as happy. Content, yes, some of the time, but never so far as happy. Happy was too extreme an emotion, and my extreme was usually the other end of the spectrum. And so I […]

September 26, 2010

Judge not


Parenting, Personal

It has dawned on me lately that as a new mother there are a lot of things that have changed for me. I’m not talking about all the things that I knew were coming – my time is not my own, I am not my top concern any more… The thing that has been smacking […]

September 24, 2010

What it feels like for a girl


Issues, Parenting

I have said before and I will say again that I wanted a son and not a daughter. When the ultrasound showed we were having a girl, I was terrified. It was hard for me growing up, I was a fat girl and I wore glasses, I was quiet, bookish, I was a dork. I […]

September 23, 2010

…But is it art?


Personal

I have come to the conclusion that my body is not, in fact, a wonderland, but it is a work of art. Today the baby girl and I went to the National Art Gallery downtown to see the exhibit that’s on since it’s ending on Sunday. I don’t pretend to be a connoisseur of art. […]

September 18, 2010

Sleep


Parenting

I love my daughter. I love spending time with her and holding her and rocking her. I swear I do. But we’ve fallen down on this putting her to bed thing. We’ve been trying to develop a routine. Daddy will make her a bottle and take her into her room and rock her until she […]

September 14, 2010

I am brave enough


Personal

To be the first one on the dance floor To move across the country for a chance at something To go through a little pain knowing that the final result will be great To let go when I have to To tell my story truthfully To let my baby push herself a little bit out […]

September 12, 2010