I have been looked for a job and interviewing for jobs almost constantly since March. Not to mention every summer since 2004 and for a whole year off and on before that.
Essentially I have been looking for work since March 2003. Almost 5 years of trying to find a job that makes me happy, has a decent salary, challenges me, etc.
Exhaustion is setting in.
Right now I am working in a job that should be almost exactly what I’ve been looking for. Great salary, good people, the ability to be the first to know almost everything and share it with the people who need to know. I love being behind the scenes and being able to sit in a meeting and listen to really, legitimately intelligent conversations with people who don’t take things too seriously all the time. It feels like I’m almost in the right place, but it doesn’t feel right.
I’m exhausted and I’m tired. Getting up at 5:30 when I’ve never – at all, ever in my life – been a morning person doesn’t help I’m sure. My contract is up in about two and a half weeks. They might extend it – they’ve been happy with the work I’ve done – but I have no idea what any extension depends on. I know that if I could hold on to this job for a year, or even two that we would be in a much better place. Especially since it feels very much like I’ve tapped out my perky interview energy and I have no creative cover letters left.
If I felt like I had it in me I would be aggressive. I don’t feel like I have anything left to give.