The same day that I declared my desire to stop my hyper-consumerism I lost my job. My probation came up and they decided not to keep me on – a decision that I don’t entirely disagree with. Now, I have no choice but to cut way back on any spending, and think long and hard.
This also gives me the opportunity – though not in the best of circumstances – to take a step back and re-evaluate what I spend my working life doing.
I have, for a long time, defined myself by the work that I do. At this job, I was never able to produce up to the standard that my boss wanted. There was someone else in the office that my boss would have preferred doing the job – except she was unavailable. I would sit at my desk stressed, and come home scared of what the next day would bring.
I like what I was doing at it’s base – but I really wasn’t doing anything that was good or necessary.
Now I’m ready. I’m ready to leave the city, to make necessary changes to my life so that I’m a reasonably happy person and my stress levels aren’t skyrocketing day by day.
Now I just need to start step by step.