A lot of 2018 has been full of stress so far. We’ve had two deaths in the family, we decided to move and that move resulted in a school change, and now I’m seeing major changes at work. It has seemed like a constant state of fight or flight. The stress that comes with overwhelming […]
It’s been a little over a week now since I did something I never thought I would ever get up the courage to do. Last Saturday I got up on a stage and I sang in front of a room full of people. Once by myself, twice in groups. This occurred after a whole week […]
Some people would walk into my home office and think it’s a bit much. My mother walked through it this week, newly set up in the new house, and said that anybody walking into that room would learn a few things about me right away. I have pictures on the walls, two full bookshelves, toys […]
The thing that perhaps upsets me most about the debate around Ontario’s health and physical education curriculum (you know, the sex ed one) is that there are parents out there who don’t want their children to have as much information as possible. There are parents who don’t want their children to know the proper names […]
There was a time when I forgot how much I loved to read. As a kid I would read constantly. I would stay up late reading by nightlight, I would go to the library regularly. I spent a Saturday moving around the house in various sitting positions reading John Grisham’s The Client. We got gift […]
The kid is in her first week of a long camp this week. It is full of things she’s never done before. On the Monday she came home excited. On Tuesday she seemed fine when I picked her up. And then on Tuesday night she started thinking all the negative things she could possibly thing. […]
In one month we take possession of our new house. In one month we will move. One month. I’ve moved a few times in my life. When I was a kid we moved twice, when I was a young adult I moved cities three times (four if you count my aborted move to Toronto). I […]
When we went on our vacation last week I was feeling very fragile. A few days before we left I had a breakdown, crying over my Gramps. It took me days longer than usual to pack. It was all harder for some reason. I expected it to be hard to see my husband’s grandfather. Grandpa […]
In 2003, I graduated from college. From the end of my internship to the day of my graduation ceremony I applied to 60 jobs. I kept a list. Sixty jobs. One or two applications resulted in interviews. It was incredibly frustrating. And so, when I finally got a job offer I went. I moved to […]
I am attempting morning pages – three pages of stream of consciousness writing soon after you wake up – to try and push myself forward a bit. I have been rather stuck. Stuck or falling further behind where I want to be. Losing myself. Part of that is the move, but part of it is […]