Too much is not enough


Books, Personal

I just finished reading Durga Chew-Bose’s book of essays Too Much and Not in the Mood. The book drew me in, in a way I wasn’t expecting. I’ve been reading a lot of books of essays by women, by women of colour, in the past couple of years, but this one was different. I’ve not ever […]

April 20, 2018

This Is Us


Personal

I’m a bad wife, coming off a rough week. I have also lost the ability to remember what day it is. And that is why I realized only late this afternoon that tomorrow is Joe’s birthday. But it’s okay, because I have already given him everything he ever wanted.   Boo-yah. We started dating shortly […]

April 15, 2018

The depth of sadness


Personal

We knew my grandfather was dying. We were waiting. And that meant that every time my phone rang and I saw my mother’s name I girded myself for the worst news. It’s been a few weeks now, but still, every time I see my mother’s name pop up I anticipate bad news. I imagine her […]

April 15, 2018

Not quite


Health, Personal

There are two keys to my depression – the things that go sideways first. One is eating, the other is sleep. This week both tanked severely. The kid was struggling with anxiety and sleep. Joe was away, which means that she was struggling more and that it was all on me to try my fix […]

April 14, 2018

Sundown in the Paris of the Prairies


Canadiana

I first heard about the bus crash late at night. I had fallen asleep in the early evening and woken around 9 or 10. Joe didn’t mention it, but when I looked at Twitter later than night the news was everywhere. It was clearly a very bad accident. The news was that many had died, […]

April 8, 2018

Turmoil


Health, Personal

For the past month or so my life has been in upheaval. A few weeks ago I was in the emergency room, terrified, in pain and uncomfortable. I felt as though I might be having a heart attack. I went through a bunch of tests – and I am so thankful for the doctor who […]

April 2, 2018

Shades of cynicism


Issues

A couple of years ago there was a news report about the dropout and truancy rates in Nunavut. Dropout rates in the territory are high, a lot of kids just stop going to school. And in this story, if I’m remembering it right, it was in this story that I heard someone point out the […]

March 31, 2018

Love you forever


Personal

We went to the funeral home today to put up the cremains of my grandfather. I carried the fancy velvet bag containing the box that contains him to the car. It was heavier than I expected. I put it in the back seat and wondered whether I should buckle it in. I struggle with whether […]

March 23, 2018

Life Lessons from my Gramps


Personal

Never let the tank get below half To this day I feel as though half a tank is basically empty, and when I was driving across Saskatchewan I stopped at every gas station I saw because who knew when there would be another one. Milkshakes should be thick enough that the straw stands up in […]

March 12, 2018

John Perry Goddard, 1920-2018


Personal

When Joe proposed to me, the moment was made all the more special when he told me he had gone to my grandfather and asked for his blessing. The act showed that Joe understood me perfectly. My grandfather helped to raise me and we had a special bond. He taught me to ride my bike, […]

March 11, 2018